Sunday, July 12, 2009

My Way

I think we're breaking away. I think you have left me. I mean you're still here....but I can feel you pushing away.
It's going to be hard for me, to function without you by my side. I need your reassuring smile. What am I supposed to do without it?
Do you want to leave me? Did you choose to leave me? Or did someone or something force you? Don't you always have a choice? I don't know how to talk to you anymore. It feels like we never knew each other. Like, we never laughed together.
I'm so sorry things have to be this way. If I had it my way, we could be together for as long as we both wished. But, see there's something wrong with my way. I don't think you want us together, I don't think you ever did.
What was it that pushed us apart? You were growing more status and I was growing less. Face it, you didn't want to be seen with me.
You've been a damn good friend. Thanks, because that's all we'll ever be.

Ps: Sigh. You know when "friends" are leaving you. You can feel it in your gut. You don't laugh the same way. You don't smile the same way. Nothing is the same. So, appreciate the friends you do have. And laugh with them.


  1. Your comment on my blog made my day. :D
    And I know what you mean, about friends leaving you, because that is part of my problem. :/

  2. The hardest part of growing up is feeling like you are growing apart from the people you considered closest to you. Remember that if one person walks out it leaves space for a new, wonderful, relationship to fill. My friendship fell apart with my best friend of four year but through that time I met three new amazing girls who have been by my side since.

    Hope your days will be bright : )

  3. But when friends "leave" you, at least you can appreciate what you had.

    You need the bad things to happen so that you might look back and remember the good.

    Anyway. At a loss of words...

  4. Ive lost many friends over the years, and you describe it well. Thank you for the comment on my blog the other day. You have an amazing writing style!

  5. Argh, I absolutely despise that feeling! Where you can just tell that things are a little bit more awkward and not quite the same as it used to be. That's the sort of feeling that just ties a huge dreadful knot in the pit of my stomach :P